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07.12.08, 16:54 PM General Topics
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At a really low point in my life. 36, mom of 2 (5 and 2 yrs.) FT WOHM with a job I love but that is so stressful it threatens to drag me down...lots of travel and long hours. DH is SAHD/freelancer and we have a PT babysitter, but things feel hard lately. We need my income and I am struggling with health problems (recent bout of kidnet stones that led to a hospitalization, and now having problems with alcohol.) I was sober for over a year, in AA, then dropped out but didn't have problems with my drinking until last weekend, when after a long work trip i felt out of control and drank two bottles of vodka in 3 1/2 days. I managed to detox myself and get back on track but after a horrible day at work I relapsed with wine last night. I feel so sad and tired...like a terrible mom and wife. I know I need to go back to AA, or some kind of treatment and just get myself together but I can't seem to find the strength right now. I just wish I could be a good mom like the ones I see all around me in the playgrounds, or at my son's school...instead of living with all these awful secrets. Sorry for venting here, I just needed to let this out. Any moms on who can relate, or with any advice? Thanks for listening. [ Reply | Watch | Flag ]
General Topics 07.12.08, 04:54 PM Flag
 

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Good luck to you. You know what to do. You can do it. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 04:56 PM Flag
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HALT - you are angry,lonely and tired. How can you fix this environment to get the drinking back on track? You've got to scale down the work. Can DH step it up? [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 04:56 PM Flag
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first of all, so many people have secrets and put on brave faces. second, motherhood really pushes us to confront our own demons. can you get back to AA? is your dh supportive of you? is he judgmental with the drinking? does he know about the recent relapses? [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 04:57 PM Flag
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My liver hurts reading this. Good luck to you. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 04:57 PM Flag
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Wow, you are a bitch. Good luck to YOU. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 04:59 PM Flag
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Lighten up. 2 vodka bottles in 3 days does hurt my liver. I'm sure OP knows it too. I truly wish her the best as current behavior isn't good for her body. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 05:04 PM Flag
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Lighten up? OP is in obvious distress and your judgement is ugly. Also, I doubt she needs you to inform her of the damage she is doing. I hate people like you. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 05:06 PM Flag
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you are probably the same mom whose 5 yr old is checking on his drunk father. OP, good luck to you, I think you know what you need you to do. Best wishes. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 05:11 PM Flag
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My eyes hurt reading such callous cruelty from you. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 05:03 PM Flag
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The new UB seems supersensitive. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 06:33 PM Flag
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go back to aa NOW. seriously, after reading this sentence, find the nearest meeting and GO! good luck. you will get better and be happy again soon. now go. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 04:59 PM Flag
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ITA! get out the door mama, we all go through the thick of winter to get to the best of summer. you owe it to yourself and your family to get to a meeting asap. there are so many people struggling just like you, even though it may not seem like it. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 05:01 PM Flag
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yes--go now. gl! [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 05:02 PM Flag
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Thanks everyone. I am going to dig up my NY intergroup list and find a meeting asap. My dh is supportive but he has his own problems, especially since he lost his FT job last fall. This is my first time back on UB since last year, it' snice to know there are still some understanding moms on here. And poster above is right, 2 bottles of vodka in 3 days was an awful thing. I'm determined not to go back there...I'm a little nervous that I may need to seek some medical treatment though, have been reading about seizures, etc. from stopping drinking "cold turkey" although I did it before...does anyone know if I could be in real danger? I won't be able to see my dr. tomorrow and definitely need to be back at work on monday. I'm sober now but still feel pretty shaky. Thanks again. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 05:10 PM Flag
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I don't think you are in danger. [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 05:21 PM Flag
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ita - my dh has been sober 10 yrs and still needs meetings. he's always better after a meeting. gl [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 05:10 PM Flag
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get back in the program. where's your sponsor? if you don't have one get one. read the big book and talk to bill if you need [ Reply | More
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General Topics 07.12.08, 06:37 PM Flag
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